too much information in my brain - massages - sick kitty

I suppose it's normal to go through bouts of depression... I don't know if I feel depressed so much as overwhelmed. There are just so many decisions to make about the profound impact this disease will have on the rest of my life. I am doing my best to keep all of these thoughts in the back of my mind, since I can't make any decisions now. If I let them consume me, I might as well just stay in bed all day.

I have noticed that I've been very forgetful. I forget to clean the cat box, I forget things people say to me. I forget to write down questions to ask the doctors. It's just too much sometimes.

At the moment, I feel like my head is going to explode. I haven't had headaches in so long and I just hate feeling this way. I will see my chiropractor this afternoon and she will help immensely. I also must remember (somehow) to ask her for a referral to a massage therapist who will be on my new insurance and is in Tacoma. It will be too hard to see my therapist in Olympia after I move.

I think I'm also going to see another massage therapist in Tacoma who I know of who does not work with insurance, but her rates are really good and I could get some extra tension-reducing massages.

I woke up at 2:30 this morning to my kitty, Mea, sneezing up a storm. You know cats aren't feeling well when they just lay there and let you pet them and don't purr. I gave her some antibiotics and I think I have enough for a 10 day course. Hopefully she will be feeling better soon.